i have decided !

It feels like i have been an idiot for few weeks,
Unable to let go certain thingz

Thinking something i shouldn't be thinking,
Always being take over by my weakness

But now things have change, a girl used to tell me that in order to achieve or gain, we must always put our maximum effort to do that,

i have not did anything and yet i almost gave up, just the race getting started
i have not done much thing that i really give it all out,

This time, nothing can stop me, i may not be a good talker, but i can be a good listener,
Maybe i was good in talking last time, but now what i say, i will make it happen.

Loving someone maybe a harsh path for me,
It may hurt me more than anything,
it will give it all out of my effort & maybe results will be same as before as i always expected!

However, even though i give out everything i had, i wasn't aspect much in return,
i just wanted to let her know that loving someone, sometime the person can be really stubborn even being rejected, but being rejected isn't that hurt,
The wound that hurt most is sometime i wouldn't tot it will hurt "Jealousy"

Jealousy is the most painful thingz dat hurt someone, instead of being rejected.

I was very disappointed with myself that i was thinking on giving up, i am totally an idiot,
I noe that u were wishing i would just give up, but something couldn't lie, that is my feeling.

To let u noe that, loving someone doesn't mean that it have to be couple,
Loving someone can be support u from behind, wishing u all the best, Hoping u were happy!

Even results will be empty, but i will still be very happy, happy that i were able to put out all the effort, that i did not attempt before.

Even that results is the same, but i have decided that i will not GIVE UP, even it hurts me forever, i won't let go of it.

I love U isn't only becuz how is ur appearance, i love u is becuz ur personality (=^.^=)

"Ntg is happier than putting all the effort for the one U love most"
"Sumhow it has to end, and i am the one should ended it"