During the buffer week,
as i suppose to wake myself up on 10am, but i continue to sleep,
the same dream that woke me up on 10.30am....
everyday i had that dream, and is it just a dream?
when i went to my computer, the dream really is true.....although not exactly the same, but
what is the purpose for continuing for the same dream....
never had such dream continue for few days,
Mayb it is becuz of i am missing her?
it may be ridiculous just becuz a dream & i am missing sumone,
How naive i am~
there is too much i wan to say,
there is too much i wan to tell,
However, i still cant the release myself from the incident that happen, i cant denied dat, since that incident, i have lost alot things,
i have avoiding the society, ever since the incident, i have avoiding not only society, but i am avoiding myself with the opposite sex.
hiding myself may be the best solution for me, for my opinion, i was hiding for almost 3-4 years
that incident has also haunted my mind for 3-4years times.
afraid of hurting ppl again...
this incident really affecting me now....
even tough dat incident, she has forgiven me
but, i still cant untie myself from the rope dat tie me down for so long...
mayb dis is js an excuse....but
from yesterday i can see dat .....i still having problem to communicate wif opposite sex ...
i love her, it cant be denied, my feeling are not js a false feel.
dis time is a much more serious, i had not felt dis feeling, dis serious...
Yesterday i had spend to most time with her, since we know each oth...
i could have talked to her ...but whenever i wanted to say.... sumthing keeps my mouth close for the whole time....
i had never felt such a strong jealousy before either, not even when the girl i like since standard 6, had a bf.....nvr felt such a jealousy before....
back then, i used to tell myself....i would not be jealous for such thing....
in the end, i really am jealous of such small things...
sumtimes, jealous can be more hurt than word being told..
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